Flimsy, floppy, flutterby bunny?

I lie in the grass, after a few days sitting, smoking my days away, waiting for anything to happen, a lightning strike, a travelling circus to knock on my window and take me away...

I see before me a blue sky, clouds cascaded randomly. At first I notice the bird soaring high, flying free. I laugh out loud because way up higher, the birds same path is followed by an aeroplane. It leaves a clear distinct right in the centre of my view. What does it mean?

I could interpret it cynically: why, its simply the vapour trail streaming, polluting the air. Taking things literally doesn't come so naturally to me. Today, it tells me that there is a line, which must be crossed, letting go of something which is breaking me down, leaving no gap for the sun to shine through.

Yes, sometimes it is better to be a dreamer, as long as they don't stay locked in-a-box with a rusty padlock. Do you know the effect you have on the world? I suppose I've been sad for a while as I believe my words, actions bear no fruit. I've been stuck in winter; literally and metaphorically, and here the light lasts only enough time to realise you've been overshadowed by your own dwellings, and the trees look bare and frostbitten. The only good thing being the anticipation that soon the sun will return.

I felt the glow on my skin, and it was lovely.

One thing that tickled me last night was a comment I made to my sister, she was sitting by me on the couch. I noticed her little dainty feet. I said "Your feet are like babys! So soft and small, it's like youve had cotton wool wrapped around them your whole life!", I thought it was a passing observation, but she postively beamed and wiggled her toes like she'd been told she was the fairest maiden in the land. Feet are definitely underrated, especially if they are feet like my sisters!

I noticed at the bottom of my parents garden all of the fences have been taken down, and it now leads further into a forest!!! (well, of sorts) it made me wish more than ever that I was a little girl again. I will, and I say that with the utmost determination, explore this new place. Curiosity is simmering, I saw a whole host of butterflies just from where I sat on the grass next to the little apple tree. And a flopsy bunny. And I must have been very silent, as it just hopped around the garden oblivious to any other presence :)

The only problem is that everytime without fail whenever there is a sunny moment, or if I wake up in the morning and the light levels suddenly change as the sun glow fills the room, cloud passed. Is the Beatles song inevitably pops straight into my mind. I don't even have to write the line do I? There it is, right there, in your head too. It's an affliction I tell ya :)


And to carry on the bunny theme, I would to be permenantly in costume, life seems so much more fun that way!